From the category archives:

newborn

I really thought I was done.

Like the meat thermometer doesn’t go any higher, the chicken is all dried out done.

But I had a twinge the other day.

Already?

I’m not even recovered from the most recent total life-altering one.

I was shopping. I don’t remember where. I saw a very pregnant mom-to-be. And I actually felt a little sad that I wasn’t pregnant anymore.

That totally blindsided me because I don’t like being pregnant. And this last time I was so sick and miserable for so much of it, I was relieved when Wade came a month early as soon as I learned there weren’t any complications from him being slightly premature.

I’m so sleep deprived right now, and struggling to keep up with a newborn and four-year-old that I think, “You’re crazy for wanting to do this again!”

The doctor told me after the C-section that I could have one more, but that I needed to wait two years to let everything heal. Originally he’d said Wade would be my last if I didn’t have a VBAC this time. And at the time It didn’t matter because I thought I wanted Wade to be my last.

Two years is a long time. I’d be that much closer to 40. And do I really don’t want to be plagued with headaches and nausea and fatigue for months again? Do I really want to put my body through that again? It was more difficult to recover this time.

I was never one of those girls who dreamed of  being a mom. I didn’t even really play house growing up. I was sort of take it or leave it when it came to a family. I mean it was something I thought I’d do, but it wasn’t something I had to do. Then once I had two I was sure it would be enough.

I can think of a million reasons why I shouldn’t.

But there’s the one big reason I should.

Well, I guess we’ll wait and see how I feel two years from now.

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Made in the Shade

June 26, 2009 · 2 comments

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Puppy Love

June 24, 2009 · 4 comments

This is Joey.

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My favorite dog.

Shhh. Don’t tell Elizabeth.

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She’ll get jealous.

This is Wade.

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My favorite son.

Just kidding.

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I love both my boys To The Moon and Back!

Joey took a keen interest in Wade from the start. From the time I was first pregnant with Wade, Joey started following me everywhere in the house, sitting with me whenever I sat, and getting into bed with me at night. Things he didn’t do before. Somehow he just knew. Maybe pregnant women smell different. I don’t know.

When we brought Wade home Joey spent several minutes checking him out and sniffing him.

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Elizabeth just ignored Wade. Over the next six weeks Joey would check out the bassinet and it’s contents a few times a day. Often he slept on the floor next to bassinet.

This is the now empty bassinet.

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Last week Wade starting sleeping in his crib.

Poor Joey almost had a nervous break down. He spent a night and day sniffing the bassinet looking for its occupant. He’d check it out, then look at me, and make a few agitated paces around the house. When he started whimpering over it Sunday afternoon I finally took him into Wade’s room, lifted up the 35 lb. dog and showed him the baby napping in his crib.

I guess that did the trick. Joey hasn’t sniffed the bassinet since. Now he just sits with me when I feed Wade, and puts his his furry little head at Wade’s feet.

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It must be love.

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I’m still here, really I am! I didn’t mean to go almost a whole week with out posting.

Where does all the time go?

Between feeding Wade, changing Wade, feeding him again and sleeping whenever I can the days get away from me.

Even though I’m up half the night.

Then there’s David who needs attention once in a while. And the endless pile of laundry.

It has been nice to have Dave home more now that he’s self-employed again. He keeps David entertained when he can, and usually gets up with the boys in the morning so I can sleep a couple more hours. I’d be a walking zombie if it weren’t for that extra sleep each day.

Wade doesn’t seem to understand that Mommie doesn’t like working third shift.

During the day Wade sleeps for three hour stretches, wakes up to eat three or four ounces of formula , then goes back to sleep. At night he’s up every two hours and just snacks on a couple ounces here and there.

All the advice I got about straightening out his days and nights was the same. During the day put him in a bright room, and make lots of noise. So I kept Wade in the bassinet in the living room, and with David around the noise was no problem. He snoozed through it all, very peacefully.

In fact, all that seemed to result in was Wade only sleeping well if it was bright and noisy. I considered installing a TV in his bedroom, a flat screen on the wall right above the crib. SpongeBob seems to sooth him.

Instead I chucked the advice and started letting him sleep in his crib, in his room, all the time, in relative silence. The last couple nights he’s done better.

If it would quit storming I might actually get some sleep too. We had storms blow through two nights in a row. There aren’t any tornado sirens where we live out in the middle of nowhere, so we have one of those weather radios that sounds an alarm when there’s severe weather in the area. It went off five times Thursday night. Every time just as I was falling back to sleep.

I had a hard time weighing my desire to live against my desire to smash that weather radio.

Of course neither the storms nor the alarm bothered Wade, and he had his first good night.

Let’s see, in other news…

I’m working on losing the baby weight.

From Wade.

Once that’s gone I’ll work on the baby weight that’s still leftover from David.

Dave mowed a path through the field behind the house so I can walk for exercise. There aren’t any sidewalks out here, and I’m terrified to walk down our road because half-ton pick-up trucks fly by going 80 miles an hour.

Life is not slower in the country.

I took the dogs out back with me thinking they’d love it. By the time I was finished they were both lying on the porch waiting for me.

Lazy canines.

I’m still on the Sling and Swaddle Journy and twittering about it as @mom_25. We’re having a hard time though because Wade doesn’t care much for the sling or the Miracle blanket.

Twitter is proving to be great entertainment while I’m feeding Wade or holding him and praying that he goes back to sleep. You can find me on there as @mommiedaze also. It’s a lot easier to type 140 characters with one hand than it is to blog.

The one question I have is why are the rest of you people awake and on Twitter at 3 a.m. when you don’t have a baby keeping you up?

I really wonder what moms did before Twitter and blogging? This is why no one is watching soaps any more.

You can become a fan of Mommie Daze on Facebook now too. Why? Because all the cool kids are doing it, and I am nothing if not one of the cool kids.

O.K. I was never one of the cool kids, but be my fan anyway.

There will now be a brief pause as I get out my soapbox and climb up on it…

(Can you even buy soap in a box big enough to hold an adult these days?)

Finally, I have to mention Iran just for a minute. Yes, I’m not totally out of the loop. I do see the news once in a while.

It’s amazing to watch all that unfold, and hear the talk of revolution. It’s inspiring and makes me think this is how we should feel about democracy and freedom and choice. If only we were half that passionate in this country. I’m not talking about taking to the streets and rioting, but if we took a little more action when we were dissatisfied, well, maybe we could change some things too.

I’m just sayin’…

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Had A Bad Day

June 4, 2009 · 2 comments

I burned and crashed today like a 747 falling out of the sky on fire.

Wade was fussy the night before and kept me up for hours. When I finally got him quiet, I laid awake despite my exhaustion, the caffeine and erratic sleep patterns taking their toll me.

I cried at 3 a.m. and again at five just because I was so tired.

Then I was cranky all day today. I desperately needed a nap, but I couldn’t get David to take one. So no nap for me either.

I shouted at David when I shouldn’t have. I punished him for little things that didn’t matter.

I really lost it when he spilled red Koolaid on the carpet. It was an accident, but I acted like he did it on purpose, just to spite me.

The poor kid.

I prayed for patience, asked David for forgiveness.Wondered what Wade thought of this crazy woman who was yelling while he tried to sleep.

I’d held it together pretty well the last three weeks. But today was the breaking point.

Things got better in the evening. And even after all my shouting and carrying on David crawled up on my lap and said, “I love you Mommie.” Boy was that just the thing I needed. I was still tired, but my frustration melted away after that.

Well, tomorrow is another day. Tonight, another chance to sleep.

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Me? Babywearing?

May 30, 2009 · 4 comments

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I’m going to be trying out babywearing along with Wade for the first time in June.

People who know me are probably thinking, “What? You? Do you feel O.K.?”

See, I’m kind of a skeptic, and I don’t usually ascribe to these sort of “trends.” I said before the only thing going green in my house is last week’s leftovers in the fridge, I’ll never home school because it would probably kill me, and you can read here about my reaction to everyone telling me I had to breastfeed.

Maybe it’s because I’m getting old, and my arms ache from holding Wade all day.

Maybe it’s because Wade is a different baby than David was, and seems to need more holding.

Maybe it’s because I’m almost 100% sure Wade is the last baby of mine I’ll hold close.

Whatever the reason, babywearing suddenly sounds like a great idea.

So when I saw that Hotslings and Miracle Blanket were holding a contest about babywearing, I decided to apply. And to my surprise I was selected as one of 30 moms to spend the month of June Twittering about babywearing and baby swaddling during the Sling and Swaddle Journey.

Come follow me, @mom_25, on Twitter to keep up with my journey that starts next week when my sling arrives. I’ll also be posting photos, videos and updates on MommieDaze.

Listen, this is some shameless self-promotion, I know, but the more followers I have the closer I am to winning. So (begging on knees, hands clasped, looking at you with puppy dog eyes) please, please follow me, and tell your friends too. If you aren’t on Twitter yet now is a good time to get started!

Knowing me and my kids there’s bound to be some drama or comic relief involved so stay tuned!

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1. You can make a bottle in the dark with one hand while holding baby with the other and not spill anything.

2. You can change a diaper in the dark and not put it on backwards.

3. Having pee, poop and spit-up on you doesn’t cause even the slightest gross-out reaction anymore.

4. Two solid hours of sleep feels like heaven.

5. You’ve masted all 140 burping positions, and know exactly which one works.

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